Among my other talents, I'm also a Videographer. Who would've thunk it?! Check it!

   This is a video I made and starred in last year, for a Christian talent show called B.L.A.S.T (Building Leaders and Sharing Talents), in Mount Vernon Ohio.
   Like writing, I have to plot out a video like a book. So the plot of this video is about a girl who is suffering some kind of stuggle in her life. She feels alone and thinks she's not worthy of living anymore. She resolves herself to cutting and drinking. The shower drowns out her cries and it symbolizes the trials and struggles she's facing. I honestly designed this character for anyone to relate and mold their selves into her. She the very symbolisim of struggle in life.
   As the video goes on, the girl slowly realizes that Jesus is the only way out of her struggle, or at least to make it more comfortable. By reading the Bible, she realizes that her troubles aren't even compared to what Jesus had went through on the cross on calvary. The pain and torture he went through, for us, the sinners, who are unworthy of what he had done for us. If he went through such a horrid death, why couldn't she take the little crappy things in life if hers? It all knocks things into perspective for her, and makes her have sense of things once again.
   I would like to think that this girl thought "What am I to throw this life away? That he gave his life up for? For me to have it and live it?"
   From what I have heard, my video has changed lives. Made peoples' eyes open and realize things. My Church, family, and friends, are proud of my work, and constantly praises it. I honestly never seen much in it as I was making it. I was only doing it for fun, because I love messing around with videos and acting. But when I stumbled into this realization, face first, it was shocking. And me discovering this, it makes me wonder of God wants me to travel many paths of professions in my life.
   I already want to become a english teacher, to teach teens and inspire them, for which most of my teachers failed to inspire me. I want to change teenagers' lives by what I do and influence them to be who they are and be a good person. And then, of course, I want to write my heart's desire of fantasy and romance, which I would like to inspire teens (or adults) through my stories as well. Also, now, I would like to pursue a videography career too. Yet again, inspire and have a good influence on teens everywhere through my videos. I just want to be an inspriation to teens all over, in anyway, shape or form. And I would enjoy what I  am doing that inspires in the long run. It's a win win thing for me.
   But, I just don't know what I am destined for exactly. I guess I'll never will, if I don't try and dabble into all three of them. ^_^

   Well, I hope you enjoy the video! I know I did in making it! Spread the word please!
   
   With lots of love, Kristia S.<3<3<3
    God Bless<3<3<3
    1 Peter 4:10<3<3<3

I PASSED! I PASSED! I PASSED! I PASSED!

   Currently Listening To: "A Year Without Rain" by Selena Gomez (I love this song!)

   Currently Watching: Casey Anthoney's murder trial. (I'm not even gonna begin a comment on this mental person)

   Mood: A tad bit hyper and creative. I'm itching to write, do a video, or something!

Alrighty, guys. I PASSED my GED test! And I had my very own graduation last week on Friday. ^_^ I BARELY remember being up on the stage, considering I was so friggin' nervous. (haha)



Me shaking hands of guest speakers and the principal (who was the principal when I was in ACTUAL school).
Don't I look pretty -BIG- in my gown? lol

 Anyways, I passed with these scores. ^_^ The scoring has to be above 410 on each subject.
 Language Arts, Writing --460 (You try to write an essay in 45 minutes! It's hard! And plus a rough draft!)
Social Studies --510
Science--500 (They say I'm a natural at science. *shrugs* I've never paid attention to that crap)
Language Arts-Reading--610 (^_^)
Mathematics--440 (Just BARELY made it)

Over all score (lowest possible to pass is 2225)---2520

I can't believe it! I finally passed! Now I can go to college!

   Ya know? I still can't help but still feel crappy about getting out of school, though. :/ I feel like people are scruntinzing me over me having a GED, because they probably label it as the "lazy" way of learning. It isn't I don't think. I HAD to put four years of school into four months then take a life changing test, at the last minute before the year is up. I know I shouldn't care what people think, but it still bothers me some. Eck.
    But anyways, I met some amazing teachers that has inspired me more to get into teaching myself. Miss Carole, Miss Patti, and Miss Mary Lou. They are the BEST! They've supported and encourged me all the way! I was so blessed to meet them, and I am glad that I chose this path, so I could meet these amazing women.
   I really believe I passed this test by the will of God. I prayed so hard the night before that it was, wow. When I was taking the test, I looked down at the paper, and I was like "Uh-Oh". My mind went blank. 0__o But I could feel Someone there watching and comforting me as I took it. I had asked Jesus to be beside me that day, and I feel that He was. I felt comforted and felt like I should give it my best. I did, by giving educated guesses on certain things I wasn't for sure on. And I did find some things that did make sense, surprisingly. The reading test was a breeze, I felt like those questions were made for complete idiots, where they were so easy. But I guess for all the reading I've done in the past years, paid off. :) The math was horrible! I don't even want to even talk about it. lol. All the others fell into place and I did my best.
    But I felt like I failed, as soon as I left that room. I wanted to cry where I felt defeated. Because, if I failed even ONE part of that test, I was done, I was through. I would have to retake it again, and I'm only allowed to take the official test three times a year. 0__o
   However, I did PASS! I really do believe it was the will of God! *shakes head in wonderment*

   Well, onto the next blog!

With lots of love, Kristia S.<3<3<3

God Bless<3<3<3

Have you ever felt stuck? -"When She Cried" a companion poem to "When She Cries" by Britt Nicole

“When She Cried”

By Kristia S.

A companion Poem to the song “When She Cries” by Britt Nicole

Jesus’s heart is breaking

As He watches from the sky above

Such torment he is seeing

All He can offer is His Love

He sees her tears; even though, they stay on the inside

Her friends and family wishing she would bring them to the outside

But she hasn’t

She stays silent

Because this is all she’s ever known

For the people that surround her wonder…

Even after all these years…

Does she know?

Does she care?

Does she know the difference?

Does she still even feel the danger, anymore?

Has the damage have been done to the point of no return?

Will she ever take action?

Even when it concerns the ones she loves most?

Abused, abused, and abused

That is all she’s ever known

Used, used, and used

She may not know it any other way

But He feels there is still hope

Or He wouldn’t have revealed this now

He wouldn’t have made this seen to a friend that wasn’t aware

He wouldn’t have gave the knowledge to the others that it has happened to them before

He wouldn’t have made it known to those who are lucky that it never happened to them

One of those friends, the lucky one, she recalls the one that cries silently

The hurt one, may never cried outward, but the friend feels that the one that hurts wants to

She also may recall the hurt one wishing she would have died

When she took a gun out that one night

Even if she had told her it wasn’t loaded

All the long the barrel was kept out of sight

The friend had shrugged it off as typical for the age

That the hurt one would have gotten over it

And that everyone goes through that stage

The friend feels that the hurt one feels that she is worthless

That that’s all she’s good for

And that everything is hopeless

But Jesus knows…

She is not worthless

And that nothing is hopeless

By His power, He gives hope to every dark corner

Even if that dark corner concerns a loved one that has done wrong

He knows, if the hurting one would only pray…

And that her friends would gather…

They may…

Keep that dark corner at bay…

And to never return…

All she would have is the memories of when she cried

   I am in a bad situation right now, guys. I don't know if I'll blog much for a while. I'm going through a revelation right now and it's a bit overwhelming. It barely concerns me, if any at all, but it concerns people I care for deeply. And I feel kind of hopeless about it, as of now.
   Ah...I don't know why I opened my big mouth on here about these certain things, when it isn't my place to talk about it, or give anyone a hint on what's going on. I guess this is my way of coping, or I would go absolutely insane. I just feel really sick right now.
  This poem isn't about me, by the way. I was just inspired to write it all the sudden. I know it sucks, but I needed to get it out, or it would have driven me crazy. Honestly, this is a hopeful poem. I'm hoping this is how someone would feel in this situation, but I'm not entirely sure how a certain person would feel.
   Take a listen to the song that helped me to get this poem out. "When She Cries" by Britt Nicole. It's sad and beautiful at the same time.

   I'm off for now, my head still feels slightly dizzy and absorbing things. I would really appreciate prayers being sent this way, not for me, but for my loved ones. They're the ones that need it, not me.

   I love you, guys, even if I don't know you personally or ever met in person. :)

   With lots of love, Kristia S.<3<3<3
   God Bless<3<3<3
   1 Peter 4:10<3<3<3

I HAD A DREAM!

This is me in my "professional" look.

No I'm not talking about the Martin Luther King Jr. speech. I literally had a dream about my novel in progress "Time With Seleste." opposed to the usual listen to a song and make a story out of it. No this time I had a very vivid dream! Talk about a Stephenie Meyer moment! haha.
Here's how it started.
It was May 17th 2010 (my eighteenth birthday to be exact) I had tossed and turned that whole night. Something was bothering me... Then around six o'clock in the morning--I remember this because I looked up at the clock just before I went back to sleep. It was as if I was living this vision, it was that vivid.

Joanna Garcia
Known for her role
as "Cheyenne Hart"
on the TV show "Reba"

I'm viewing from above at first, looking down on these two people. The girl was on the ground bleeding, while the boy was holding her listening intently to what she had to say. Then I'm snapped down to their perspective, I see the girl clearly she looked like the actress Joanna Garcia. The boy I couldn't see clearly, but I knew he was very good looking. Of course, this dream never indicated she was a time traveler though...that's something among a lot of other things I added. :D Then I was brought to another scene, viewed in her perspective. I was her! And I was beautiful like her as well (<-See Joanna Garcia to get what I mean).
(SPOILER coming up) All these people including me are on a boat, and we're going somewhere--no we were running from something and boat was the only way to get away. I turn to the boy I just seen in the previous scene, and I hug him and whisper "I love you." And I focus in on a freckle that was on his neck. Then I turn and run off the deck into icy frigid water. Total blackness in that point of view...

Jackson Rathbone
Well knowingly as
"Jasper Hale"
 in The Twilight Saga.

I'm snapped into--unfortunately a guy's point of view. Eck. And come to my realization the guy looks like my cousin Josh (In my novel he remains Josh but I change his image to Jackson Rathbone and not my cousin.) And he's talking about senseless things, you know how dreams gets. *rolls eyes* Another perspective was shifted to the boy who I name Darien in my novel. He's holding the girl in his arms, seemingly to be scared to death of her condition. She was drenching wet and pale, and when she comes to. They share a tiny passionate kiss, but Darien afterwards storms off angry at her for what she had done. The girl, all she was thinking was that Darien was safe. Because she knew if she didn't do what she did, he would have jumped in and not have came back at all. So she did something to save a guy she loved most. The dream ended there.
I woke up around seven that morning, astonished and confused at why I had that dream. It was amazingly vivid and interest capturing. I took it as a sign from God that it could be molded into a book. :D And he wanted me to, if not he wouldn't have blessed me with that honest to God dream! Nevertheless, it took me my whole birthday-day to think of plot that would be molded from that dream.
I first began trying to picture my characters. like I always do. I knew most definitely there would be the boy and girl that cared deeply for each other, it didn't take long for me to come up with their names. : )

The boy would be named Darien Marks (thinking of my old favorite anime show I use to watch when I was five.  "Sailor Moon." *blushes* I'm a sucker for Tuxedo Mask character, his name was Darien.) 

And my instinct told me to base his looks off from the actor on "The Vampire Diaries" Steven R. McQueen. He just fits Darien, he's good looking but not overly handsome, just right. :)

Steven R. McQueen
Known as the Grandson
of Steve McQueen.
And also known for the role
"Jeremy Gilbert"
On The CW's
The Vampire Diaries.

And for my girl it took me no time to think up a name for her "Celeste" but I wanted to change the "C" to an "S". Because for some odd reason when I started typing out "Celeste" I kept pronouncing it as "Chelsea" in my head, every time I seen the "C", that got on my nerves so badly. So Seleste was born! Also, I thought it would make it unique looking. : D. At first I went through so many actresses to picture as my Seleste. I didn't want to use Joanna Garcia, where she's doesn't look like a teenager anymore. I wanted a teenager or at least one that appears to be. Yes, Joanna is quiet pretty and talented. But with how I do with casting my characters in my head, I want them pretty close to the actual ages. (Just in case there would be a movie that could be made. ;) Come on every author thinks like that at some point. lol) So I went through, Blake Lively, Emily Osment and finally I stuck with Ashley Benson. But still...none of them fit the Seleste I had in mind. She's suppose to tiny like 5'2 barely making it over being a midget, skinny and really pretty with piercing dark blue eyes. In my dream, the first scene she was blonde, but in the next she was chocolate brown. I'm not too keen on having Seleste as a blonde, I don't want people getting the idea of Seleste being based off of me. (Even though I have considered it. But makes me sick to even think of writing about myself into a novel. So that's why I don't.)

Lucy Hale
Known as "Aria"
On the ABC Family's
Pretty Little Liars

So just recently I just re casted Seleste in my mind, and the vision of the actress has made my writing flow A LOT smoother. So another "Pretty Little Liars"'s actress became my Seleste Worthington! Lucy Hale! There's a very thin line of finding someone that can either go Tom Boy-ish or Girly. And Seleste is stuck between both, she's be happy in just a t-shirt and jeans, but she also desires the less girly fashion labels. But she cannot afford them to even dress like she desires, so she makes do with what she can get and is comfortable with it. I think Lucy can portray Seleste to a T, she's on that thin line of being girly and not girly. Also she's very tiny, short and beautiful! And another plus! Her and Steven would make an absolute adorable couple!
By right around four in the afternoon, I came up with the idea of Seleste being a time traveler. I thought it'd be way different from what I have been writing. So this is new waters to me. However, I can thank Doctor Who for the inspiration of the time traveling thing too. ;) I'm a Doctor Who-ser!

"Time With Seleste"
(Book cover.)
I rate it
PG 13
Mild mature language,
and sexual suggestions.
Are mentioned, but nothing
in detail.

The title for my novel came like the snap of my fingers! "Time With Seleste." It's so catchy and I can picture it on the books shelves!
So around ten that night I started out my novel, the plot came so easily to me like it was part of my very soul. Chapter One was originally going to be my Preface, but I went over board and wrote too much for it to be, so turned it into a chapter. For the next five to seven days I started to break my neck to get the word count up to ten thousand so people on inkpop can read it! I mainly was posting for my personal friends at home, for them to read it and see what they thought. Then it became a hit-- at first-- on inkpop! I couldn't believe it! It went from the two thousands rank to the five hundreds in the manner of hours! I was so astonished! So I started posting for my fans on inkpop as well.
I really have a confidence that this book can make it somewhere if people gave it a chance. Yes I know my grammar is horrible, but this is my first draft and I'm not going to proofread until the WHOLE story is written. For some reason if I start editing in the middle of writing a story, it just burns me out and I don't want to continue it. Same goes with outlining, so I'm doing this free of any binds! And it's refreshing! "Time With Seleste" is one of the most easy written projects I have begun, because the story is coming to me like flashes of lighting! I know God's has got something to do with it! He must be wanting me to write this story! I am dedicating my novel to this scripture -> "Each one should use whatever gift he has received to serve to others, faithfully administering God's grace in its various forms." -1 Peter 4:10. Maybe I can find someway for my book to speak in some Godly way, I'm still unsure of how that could be. But maybe it'll just happen on it's own, so I'm not going to concentrate on finding the "form" perhaps God will send it my way in an epiphany. : )
I know I'll be able to finish this in no time! I've already planned that I'm going to draft it out seven times. And I'm going to hire a freelance editor (or possibly a English professor) at my soon to be college, I'll be starting at in the spring.
I hope I can get this on book shelves someday! I'm working so hard on this, and it's became my dream.
Hope you guys read and pick it!

Check out my official website for me and my books! - > http://wix.com/KrisTeeAuh/KristiaS
And also just click my "Time With Seleste" book cover in the side bar to the left of you. And it'll take you straight to my novel on inkpop! The word count is currently 85.028 and I'm only on my twenty-second chapter! I've barely skimmed the top! I'm planning on sixty to seventy chapters in all!

Hope you guys take interest and read my dream!

With lots of love, Kristia S.<3
1 Peter 4:10-God Bless<3<3<3