Among my other talents, I'm also a Videographer. Who would've thunk it?! Check it!

   This is a video I made and starred in last year, for a Christian talent show called B.L.A.S.T (Building Leaders and Sharing Talents), in Mount Vernon Ohio.
   Like writing, I have to plot out a video like a book. So the plot of this video is about a girl who is suffering some kind of stuggle in her life. She feels alone and thinks she's not worthy of living anymore. She resolves herself to cutting and drinking. The shower drowns out her cries and it symbolizes the trials and struggles she's facing. I honestly designed this character for anyone to relate and mold their selves into her. She the very symbolisim of struggle in life.
   As the video goes on, the girl slowly realizes that Jesus is the only way out of her struggle, or at least to make it more comfortable. By reading the Bible, she realizes that her troubles aren't even compared to what Jesus had went through on the cross on calvary. The pain and torture he went through, for us, the sinners, who are unworthy of what he had done for us. If he went through such a horrid death, why couldn't she take the little crappy things in life if hers? It all knocks things into perspective for her, and makes her have sense of things once again.
   I would like to think that this girl thought "What am I to throw this life away? That he gave his life up for? For me to have it and live it?"
   From what I have heard, my video has changed lives. Made peoples' eyes open and realize things. My Church, family, and friends, are proud of my work, and constantly praises it. I honestly never seen much in it as I was making it. I was only doing it for fun, because I love messing around with videos and acting. But when I stumbled into this realization, face first, it was shocking. And me discovering this, it makes me wonder of God wants me to travel many paths of professions in my life.
   I already want to become a english teacher, to teach teens and inspire them, for which most of my teachers failed to inspire me. I want to change teenagers' lives by what I do and influence them to be who they are and be a good person. And then, of course, I want to write my heart's desire of fantasy and romance, which I would like to inspire teens (or adults) through my stories as well. Also, now, I would like to pursue a videography career too. Yet again, inspire and have a good influence on teens everywhere through my videos. I just want to be an inspriation to teens all over, in anyway, shape or form. And I would enjoy what I  am doing that inspires in the long run. It's a win win thing for me.
   But, I just don't know what I am destined for exactly. I guess I'll never will, if I don't try and dabble into all three of them. ^_^

   Well, I hope you enjoy the video! I know I did in making it! Spread the word please!
   
   With lots of love, Kristia S.<3<3<3
    God Bless<3<3<3
    1 Peter 4:10<3<3<3

Have you ever felt stuck? -"When She Cried" a companion poem to "When She Cries" by Britt Nicole

“When She Cried”

By Kristia S.

A companion Poem to the song “When She Cries” by Britt Nicole

Jesus’s heart is breaking

As He watches from the sky above

Such torment he is seeing

All He can offer is His Love

He sees her tears; even though, they stay on the inside

Her friends and family wishing she would bring them to the outside

But she hasn’t

She stays silent

Because this is all she’s ever known

For the people that surround her wonder…

Even after all these years…

Does she know?

Does she care?

Does she know the difference?

Does she still even feel the danger, anymore?

Has the damage have been done to the point of no return?

Will she ever take action?

Even when it concerns the ones she loves most?

Abused, abused, and abused

That is all she’s ever known

Used, used, and used

She may not know it any other way

But He feels there is still hope

Or He wouldn’t have revealed this now

He wouldn’t have made this seen to a friend that wasn’t aware

He wouldn’t have gave the knowledge to the others that it has happened to them before

He wouldn’t have made it known to those who are lucky that it never happened to them

One of those friends, the lucky one, she recalls the one that cries silently

The hurt one, may never cried outward, but the friend feels that the one that hurts wants to

She also may recall the hurt one wishing she would have died

When she took a gun out that one night

Even if she had told her it wasn’t loaded

All the long the barrel was kept out of sight

The friend had shrugged it off as typical for the age

That the hurt one would have gotten over it

And that everyone goes through that stage

The friend feels that the hurt one feels that she is worthless

That that’s all she’s good for

And that everything is hopeless

But Jesus knows…

She is not worthless

And that nothing is hopeless

By His power, He gives hope to every dark corner

Even if that dark corner concerns a loved one that has done wrong

He knows, if the hurting one would only pray…

And that her friends would gather…

They may…

Keep that dark corner at bay…

And to never return…

All she would have is the memories of when she cried

   I am in a bad situation right now, guys. I don't know if I'll blog much for a while. I'm going through a revelation right now and it's a bit overwhelming. It barely concerns me, if any at all, but it concerns people I care for deeply. And I feel kind of hopeless about it, as of now.
   Ah...I don't know why I opened my big mouth on here about these certain things, when it isn't my place to talk about it, or give anyone a hint on what's going on. I guess this is my way of coping, or I would go absolutely insane. I just feel really sick right now.
  This poem isn't about me, by the way. I was just inspired to write it all the sudden. I know it sucks, but I needed to get it out, or it would have driven me crazy. Honestly, this is a hopeful poem. I'm hoping this is how someone would feel in this situation, but I'm not entirely sure how a certain person would feel.
   Take a listen to the song that helped me to get this poem out. "When She Cries" by Britt Nicole. It's sad and beautiful at the same time.

   I'm off for now, my head still feels slightly dizzy and absorbing things. I would really appreciate prayers being sent this way, not for me, but for my loved ones. They're the ones that need it, not me.

   I love you, guys, even if I don't know you personally or ever met in person. :)

   With lots of love, Kristia S.<3<3<3
   God Bless<3<3<3
   1 Peter 4:10<3<3<3